Sorry for not updating this past weekend. My grandma Ann (we called her “nana”) died on Saturday morning after five months of being in the hospital off and on, and I really did not feel like writing any updates. Even now I don’t feel like updating, but I figured if I didn’t, people would continue to complain. I may not update as much over the next month or so, especially since school is about to end in two weeks and I have finals and essays, so this is just a notice (and perhaps some advice).
It’s weird dealing with death. This is my first time having someone close to me die (since she was a second mother to me), and it really feels like you are in a dream and removed from reality. Have you ever had one of those dreams where someone in your family dies, and then you wake up and you’re like “Thank God it wasn’t real?” Well, it feels like being in one of those dreams, except you can’t wake up. I am obviously awake, but the feeling of what has happened is just so crushing and depressing that it is unbearable. Most of us will probably have to go through a time like this, especially if you have parents who you are close with, and it is best to mentally prepare for it.
Appreciate the time you spend with your family, because before you know it, it could all be gone in the blink of an eye. Live your lives, but also cherish who you have in them. It’s just so short. Are you spending enough time with your loved ones? If not, perhaps you should give them a call or pay a memorable visit. Are you appreciating your parents and everything they have done for you? Are you letting them know it? When was the last time you told your parents you loved them, and I mean seriously saying it? What about your siblings and grandparents? You need to let everyone in your life know how much you love and need them. You never know when that last day will come. It could be tomorrow, it could be next week, it could be years from now, and worst of all, it could be unexpected and shocking. You do not want any regrets.
I will love you forever my nana, and I know one day we will meet again in Heaven with God. You, mom, dad, and auntie E.C. taught me and my brothers everything we know about life, morality, living Christian lives, and loving one another, and if it weren’t for you, people probably wouldn’t even be reading this website right now. Thank you for everything you taught me and all of the love and care you suffocated us with. When our family and I see you eventually, I’ll kiss you a million times to make up for the years we were separated between now and the day I die. You’re my precious nana!