RE: Your greatest fears and phobias.
Afraid of heights, flying, space and what I call the "void of inexistence".
The first doesn't need much explanation, I'm afraid of it (and I'm always afraid my glasses are going to fall off for some unknown reason).
The second...I thought I'd might like it. It was a two way trip and I found it awful, the liftoff just made my heart beating faster, I spent my whole going trip with my hands closing tight an ankh I wore in a string, I tried looking at the window but the height was too much and the blue above was starting to seem like space, and I only rested assure after going to the luggage terminal. The coming trip was almost the same but I took some sleeping pills which didn't worked entirely since I spent the trip almost falling asleep but when was right to it I wold wake up and again try to fall asleep, I caught some turbulence which at first I found ok but as time went on I thought we're going to fall and, to end it, when approaching the airport, the pilot made a tight curve to the left while passing above the river and already flying low...The worst of all: since now I know how it is, sometimes I actually dream of it and so it that "dream" is actually a nightmare. If I had dreams before that ended in nightmare with me falling and waking up with my stomach felling "funny", now I also fly on a plane.
The final ones... how sometimes I wish I was just blissfully ignorant, not knowing about the universe and the big boom theory (I think that's how it's called the theory that the universe will shrink, the opposite of the Big Bang). So, if I lift my head to the point my neck is bended and I can only see the sky I start getting the same feeling about heights, more so if it's a starry night because I realise how small I am compared to the planet and then compared to the whole universe.
The "void of inexistence" is not only the fear of my death but the fear of total emptiness, without gods, without the laws of the universe, the fear that the Big Bang would not even exist, just an endless black slate of nothing without life and death. Sometimes I'm in my room at night, in total darkness and silence and when I start thinking of it I get scared but it also drives me to enjoy life even more, the sun, nature, friends and the joys of life (including videogames =P).
That's it.
PS: while not a phobia or fear of how they look or something, I'm afraid of geckos and cockroaches because they're very fast (the firsts to catch and then release (sometimes they fall from my chimney and into my kitchen) and the second...sorry to say, but to smash it)
Athena said:
(...) Oddly enough, some of the "weirder" plants are also ones that I am okay with; cacti are cool, and so are venus fly traps. I still prefer no plants at all, though; we have fake ones on our windowsill.
Cacti and flytraps are my favorite plants!! That's why I love the Bellsprout line (and you to it seems!
), the joyful look on Carnivine and Cacnea (and Roserade because it's elegant but the whole sense of masquerade and deception) is very present with the mask and the bouquets hiding poison and powders).
I have a lot of cacti from the same species (though I cannot tell which one) that are round (hence Cacnea) and they're all "sprouts" from a couple of them my father brought from work some twelve years ago! I even started offering them to friends since I also think that I'm somewhat like them: not looking friendly but with a good core!
I've been thinking of getting not a venus but a pitcher plant (due to liking Victrebell more than Carnivine) but since they're from hot and tropical places I'm afraid it won't survive Winter and I wouldn't like to keep it inside.
PS: I've been wishing for another carnivorous plant Pokémon but based on those that have "spikes" with sweet transparent tips that trap prey as glues and whose leafs bend over.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Drosera_capensis
PS2: well, while looking for the above plant, I found one native to my country...I'll try to find it and get it.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Drosophyllum
